Tombo Baldwin here. Hey, all you listeners. Thanks so much for listening. I so appreciate you and I just gotta say as we start this, I am so proud of you because if you are a listener and you've been listening for a while, I know you're not some fly-by-night listener that you're doing the hard work. You're really interested in a life of meaning and purpose and just becoming a whole person. I'm just going to give you an incredible attaboy, attagirl. You're doing the hard work. I am so proud of you. If nobody's told you, you're amazing. Thank you. And more people should notice it, but I notice and thank you so much. Let's get into the intro. I love this music. Oh my gosh. You're like, how much caffeine have you had? Not caffeine, alcohol. Oh my gosh. I'm here at Tom Baldwin's first drunk podcast. I am not drunk. I weigh 300 pounds currently. By the way, I was like 318. So the dude's doing good. I'm just going to tell you, it takes a lot of alcohol to actually get this person intoxicated. And I'm not going to tell you how much it was, but it was probably, Adrienne might know, but we were both pretty out of it at the neighbor's house. Like after a day of lawn care, I don't even know if I should tell this story, but I'm already down the road. And I hate when people like, Oh, I shouldn't tell that. And they don't. And then you suck if you do, you really don't. It's just not very nice. So I'm going to tell it after a hard day of lawn work, I go looking for Adrienne. She's at the neighbor's house, which we talked to them out in the yard, but we actually don't go in their house. And I go inside and she's having a Moscow mule. And I think she's already two in and she's like, you don't want one and talk into the neighbors, which would love her neighbors. Super fun. And I just got to tell you the gal making the Moscow mills. This is not what you get in a bar. There was no skimping on the Tito's vodka. It was like, we were, I don't know if it was double or triple, but I quick drank two down. Cause I was hot to get caught up with Adrian. And honestly, the last thing I can remember, and I five or six more in, maybe it's like going to the bathroom and having a really hard time focusing on the toilet. And unfortunately, I think the next day there was probably cleanup in bathroom number guests because the drunk neighbor. Anyway, that is a rarity. That is one of the few times. And there, I have to say, I probably had a good third of that whole bottle of Tito's and wow. I was like, Adrian, all we had to do was walk across the yard, but it, it was a challenge to get into our pants. And you're just like, Oh, nice Christian man there. Absolutely. I am having fun, having it in a safe way and doing no harm. Had great conversation. If you have a problem with that, then go listen to another podcast because I don't do that often. And yeah, I had a few old fashioned say, and I'm, I'm more excited. I just did a podcast and Oh my gosh, you guys are going to love it. And so I'm kind of amped up and worked up and this podcast, this one's, this one's gonna is tearful for me because it's an experience that I had earlier this week and it was a real struggle of experience. It was a, a huge growth moment aided by my wife, the lovely, beautiful, awesome, challenging, fiery, sexy, hot, super hot mama. Oh my gosh. Have we had a good time, but she can be fiery and other ways and expectations and stuff like that, which I need, I'm not going to say I don't need it. She's helped me grow probably more than anybody. And I love her for that. So her, and then my youngest, the J man, Oh, I love his sweetness and his, his, just his intelligence. Yeah. Really helped bring about this moment. And it really has given me an incredible tool in my life that I love. And that's what I want to talk about today. And just thank you to my family. I love my family. I love all my kids. They're so amazing. I love the sons and daughters-in-law that have married into the family and they are amazing people and add so much to this family. You help make me who I am. I love you so much. I appreciate you. You are an example to me. You are inspiration to me. And I'm not just saying it to be stuff and fluff because I'm not stuff and fluff. I learned so much as I observed them, Oh, so good. And so you guys, if you don't know, I'm so blessed. I am so blessed. I am, I'm such a blessed man. I have so much money. I have so much wealth. I'm like, Tom, if you have so much money, why do you have a support link in your thing? Because as you give, you will be blessed. So I'm just trying to help you out. You're just like, well, that's a gimmick. Well, try it. See if it works. See if you can give me some money out of genuine intent and good and wanting to see this stuff get out there. If you don't see a return of, uh, I'm, I'm thinking at least threefold you, you$5 in the support link. You're easily going to get 15 in the next week. How can you say that? Because I know the quantum realm. I am learning the quantum realm, right? You're just like, you sound like some televangelist. Well, maybe I do. And maybe they knew something that we all don't know. At least in part when they weren't sitting with a hooker in the back of the semi, you're like, Whoa, where does that come from? Well, if you're in the eighties and nineties, you'll know where that came from. But how does Tom get sidetracked giving you good stuff as we get sidetracked and you ought to be paying attention and yeah, try that. You don't even have to give it to me. Give it to somebody. I mean, I give money to my favorite organization and I have it on auto thing. So I don't forget because I know that it has meaning and purpose and it comes back. It is part of my investment in my future and other people's future. Because as you help people, your intent is so good. You are manifesting the best reality now by having intention towards others and wanting to help. Wow. That's reason enough right there. Dang it is whatever happened to logic. Well, we're going to talk about what happened. Logic. One of these days I will talk about that because it's a question I often ask myself and I think I might actually have some insight into that. But what I want to talk about today is when I got back from Florida because I went to see my brother, Mike. Oh my gosh, Mike. And you've heard me talk about my brother, Mike. Ah, yeah. Amazing. Was diagnosed with a really serious disease, leukemia, and a pretty serious form of and they got it under control. But the ultimate cure is was a bone marrow transplant. And he just went through that. And I went and saw him. Oh my gosh, such a strong man. And at some point we'll have him on and have him tell his story. You guys are going to freak out. He's so different to me. You're like, dude, you actually are brothers. And we are a lot alike. But man, we're as different as we are alike also. But great trip with him. We had a lot of fun. I was just able to be there with him, offer support. And yeah, but man, that, that, that man did the hard work. Yeah. The doctor, doctors don't do this. And it's probably because we're behind doors, but like muttered the word cured. I mean, you've been around allopathic doctors. That's just not something they say. They said that about my brother and it's because he's worked hard to keep his mental attitude amongst challenges galore, man. What a guy. Anyway, I got back and I'm back here and what's gone eight days. Yeah. Eight days and come back. And in Montana is pretty nice here. So the yard's been growing and along with the yard are dandelions and we live in the perfect suburban subdivision. You all know what I mean? You know, the subdivision that has the HOA and we want your camper behind a fence. Your trash cans can only be out for six hours prior to pay. I don't even know if that is, but you get what I'm saying about the rules kind of, you know, it's, we love this neighborhood. We love our neighbors, but some of the rules are just kind of, but just to kind of set the scenes. And so dandelions are not an approved species of lawn decoration here. And in the past I have reluctantly, because I'm not a fan of the like herbicides and pesticides and those things. I think my son, Daniel, that's a farmer told me it's 240 D whatever that is that kills the weed. It's the same as Agent Orange in Vietnam. And that was so good. It treated the soldiers so well. There were no side effects and can't imagine why we would spray that on our lawns now because yeah. So in the past I have reluctantly minimally treated my lawn with that. And every time I do, I have either a mini or somewhat major crisis of consciousness. And I'm just like, and I do it. And I, gosh, I just, I don't feel good. I don't feel good in my soul. You know what that is? And like, it translates to your body, but it's in your soul. You violated something inside and your body knows it. It's like, dude, that was, that was, that was a core principle. What's, what's going on here? And just depression, despair, and just looking out. And then when my daughter, Liberty, was home and she was sensitive to that and she would react. And then I see my dogs out there and I'm like, oh my gosh, what I'm like a murderer, murderer, killer, disease spreader. Yeah. Wow. A little time would go on and you know, you're just like, you try to forget, you try to justify. And pretty soon the dandelions are gone, the lawn's green, life is good. And we don't know that we just poisoned the ground wide. And you're like, Tom, so extreme. Oh, that's, I have to be, this is what I'm feeling. It's real. And it is poison. It's banned in Europe for crying out loud. It's poison. Not that Europe has everything figured out, but it's banned there, right? What, what are we doing? So I've done that in the past reluctantly and way less than anybody else. And then sometimes if the guilt's really high, I'll have someone else come and do it. Cause that's better. Right? Yeah. Totally better. So this year I come home from Florida and there's a healthy crop in our yard and I have two neighbors, especially I'm sure I have more. Well, actually I do. I know there's one of my Moscow mule friends across the way, golf course lawn, and the other ones, not so much, but the one kitty corner and the one across the street on the other side, old guys, just like in the fall, every time a leaf would fall, they're out there with their little yard machines, suck it up. And so when my yard was full of leaves and I mulched it, I think two of them probably had to visit Bozeman Deaconess for cardiac arrest and had to be shocked back because they probably passed out when my lawnmower without a bag started mulching my leaves. Oh, I'm not trying to piss anybody off, but I have some beliefs that I'm trying to hold true to them. I'm trying to be authentic and genuine. So when I get back from Florida, I see that and I'm looking at the neighbor kitty corner and he's not out, but I can just feel his eyes. You know, you can feel that. And the other neighbor with his lawnmower with the chrome bag wheels, whoever heard of a lawnmower with chrome bag wheels, right? Looking over at those dandelions, looking at me, you, you have. So yeah, I'm going to come over there. I'm getting my whip out. You're going to give me 20 lashes and then 20 pushups, right? Boy, boy, what are you doing in this neighborhood? Boy was those dandelions. Boy, I got a whoop your ass boy. Oh yeah. You, you all think I'm making, that's, that's the kind of crap that's going through my head. And so I go look in the garage and there's no weed killer left probably because last year under a moment of good conscious thought, I threw it away. Not that that's the best solution because it goes in the landfill, right? I tell Adrian, I'm going to the store to get weed killer. She's like, well, okay. I come back. I don't tell anybody. I'll get out of the car and try to get the first one going. Damn thing doesn't work. It's the one where you flip the lever out. It's like the gallon and a half jug or gallon jug. And it's full of that wonderful two 40 D right? Kills the weeds and not your lawn and not you. Well, we're not sure about that. Possibly it'll kill you, but we won't ever admit to that because we might be liable. So you're fine. Don't worry about it. You'll be fine. You'll just manifest that best reality now. And no chemicals can hurt you, which may be true. Thanks for throwing that in there, Tom. It's not that I needed more to think about. I know. Right, dude. Anyway. So I tried and it's battery operated. So you pull a little tag out of this. What's going on? We, we, we, we, we, it's like we, we, we, we, nothing. We, we, we, we, we, we, we, we, we, we, we, we, we open the lid smell it. We put it back on. We have nothing. Uh, that's 2397 on sale. Thank God it wasn't 29 99. Actually, I was able to take that one back. So I opened the second one and part of me is like, Oh gosh, I hope this, I hope they all don't work. I'll be, I'll be off the hook. Cause I'm still under this crisis of consciousness, but I managed to drive the store, buy it, come home and open it up. Second one, squirt, squirt, squirt. Okay. Okay. And I'm spraying it and I'm walking backwards. I'm like backwards. It's not that great. And you guys, I'm spraying my boulevards and things going nonstop because there are a lot of Dan and you're like, why don't you just put the fertilizer stuff down? I don't want to turn the sprinklers on yet. And you got to have a wet. And anyway, so I'm doing that. So I turn and I'm spraying it and I'm walking and then I can smell it. I'm getting on my shoes. I'm like, dude, that's not good for you. And so I turned the other way, but I get tired of walking backwards. And then I said, dude, you're not. So I make it through one section of Boulevard through the other section, cycling this and cycling the emotions. Don't get it on you. Oh, I can smell that now that I wonder what that's doing to my gut, killing all my bacteria. Oh yeah. Yes. This is what's going on. And I, and I started this third one and my wife comes up behind me, puts an arm on my elbow, how am I spraying arm? I turn around and I look at her and she says to me, guys, I'm sorry. I get emotional here. She says, you don't have to do this. I start crying. I put down the thing. I'm like, I don't want to. It's just a saw. Yeah. And he's like, why is dad spraying poison on the lawn? She's like, I don't know. Guys, I was violating a curve value. And my spirit, my soul was aching. Just need one person to step in and say something. You can be that person that my wife was and my son was to somebody. I'm not saying it's going to be repoisoned, but it could be something else. It could be an addictive habit. That's not good. It could be an addictive substance. It could be addiction to porn or something like that. And it's just killing your insides. Your insides are saying, we're dying in here. Something's dying. We're violating principles. When you violate principles, your core principles, your soul, your being, your quantum presence aches and aches and it hurts because it's being wounded by you, the person that trusts those hands. My values and my core trust these hands to do the appropriate thing. And in this process, guys, and I don't know how I made it this far because by the time Adrian come, I was already in tears and I'm not going to say I was going to stop because her, her presence was, it was divine. I, I just got to say that as I'm spraying, I see the bees. I see the pollinators going back and forth, doing their work, helping keep this ball going. They don't get paid. There's no, it's what they were designed from the creator to do to help sustain life for us and the other things that are around. And I see them and I spray it on top of them. And I'm just a part of me. It's just like, for those neighbors, for that son of a bitch next door, fat ass. I do love him. I'm getting the point across to those beautiful bees. And I know the person across the street. I don't know the reason for spraying. I don't know why they do that, but I know they're a human being and they have value and whatever woundedness or whatever bleed system caused them to be to where they're at. I, I don't judge them for that, but I, I give you the verbiage and the discussion to contrast what I'm feeling. I see, because I believe in the natural world. I'm not in the irrational environment, but I believe are mentalist, but I believe in creation. And I believe in the things of creation and the systems that are designed to work and the bees and the dandelions. Dandelions have so many health benefits and I'm not in this podcast is not about touting the health benefits of the dandelions, but there are two beautiful, good things operating in my lawn and I bring poison in to kill them. They are working to help sustain life and productivity here. And my conscience says no, but I did it. So that dandelion moment caused me to look at other areas of my life, the selfishness that I often show poisoning, the value I have in family and the value I have with relationship, the tendency to get offended by the people I love. The core value is to love and forgive and offense is ugly. I, I'm just going to say this bold statement because I believe it to be true. You never have a reason to be offended. You choose it. You choose to poison yourself and those around you. When somebody gets an offense, wow, it poisons everything, doesn't it? It even poisons people that aren't affected. They begin to choose sides. And so I saw dandelion moments all over in my life and I'm like taking a stand no more. And I believe in the divine. I believe you know him as Jesus. I call him Yeshua Hamashiach. That is his name. Doesn't matter what you call him. But I believe he sends people into my life as he can you to come up and touch your elbow and say, you don't have to do this. You don't have to have that drink. You don't have to take that line. You don't have to take that pill. You don't have to smoke that blunt. You don't have to watch that act. Yeah, those people are blessings and those moments are dandelion moments. They are moments where you discover the profound beauty of choosing life. When you align with your core values, you're bringing life and you're entering that realm where you're clearing the slate to collapse the possibilities of the best reality now. And my best reality happened when I stopped spraying and the joy that flooded my soul for making the right choice. We can be wrong and change. And that's beautiful. I was wrong and I changed with a little help. Beautiful. What did I do when I came inside? I forgave myself. Tambo, I forgive you for doing that. You fell to the pressure of the outside, to the perception. Nobody even said anything to you. You made it up in your head, the perception of your neighbors. Maybe they wouldn't even say that. I don't even know. I made it 100% up and I took bold, toxic action on a made-up story. I'm not going to do that again, but I forgive you. I love you. You made the right choice. Good job. Boy, if you haven't fallen in love with radical forgiveness, you got to do it. You need it and those around you need it because you know what radical forgiveness does? Man, it takes bitterness and that attitude right out of you. It's like holding it all day and just peeing. You get all that crap out of you by forgiving yourself. It's like a good pee or good dump. You're just like, that ain't redneck. I don't know what is, right? So, so thankful for the dandelion moment and I'm using that. I love that term for me. It was a moment of real decisiveness. Helped me identify other things in my life that I can begin to have a dandelion moment and I can call it that and I realized it's a point of the decision and I also realized some other things. It's violating my core values. It's hurting me, which helps me make the right decision. Ah, friends, what a beautiful time and that moment, it was, I really did cry and when I even grabbed my arm, I could hardly, I could hardly hold it in. Those moments are so divine and so beautiful. I crave those moments. Not doing the wrong thing. I don't crave that, but I, I crave the divine intervening. The quantum field, the kingdom of heaven is for you and some of you don't believe that and it's time to start getting to the decision point of believing it and testing it and many of you are still on the fence with this whole fluid reality. It's this time you need it. It's time to get some different reality in your life. Ah, good, good, good stuff. So proud of all of you. So proud of me. Tombo, way, way to go. Hey, as always, do something super cool. Give yourself some forgiveness today. Give yourself a pat on the back. Even if you didn't quite accomplish what you wanted, you tried and you put the effort in. You're amazing. Tell yourself you're amazing. And as always, Hey, I got you. I do. I got you.